"You're text book perfect!"
"Superman" "Thin, Young, Healthy"
Just a few phrases used over the 9 years of unexplained infertility. A few phrases spouted out to us in frustration and exasperation by specialists who are supposed to find the answer to the ever ending question.... Why?
Why? Why do we struggle so hard when it seems so easy for everyone else. Why do we never get a positive pregnancy test, what is wrong with me? With him? Why?
For 9 years we've been married. For 9 years we tried for babies. For 9 years we wondered. Why?
Unexplained Infertility. A label that stuck to us like a Scarlett A. Today however, all though that letter remains, it is much smaller, not so visible but much more painful that not knowing.
"It would almost be easier to just know why" is what we told ourselves for years but now that I know, I don't want to know.
There is nothing that can be done to change it. No diet to reverse it, no bad habit to quit, no increase in exercise will reverse time, will make my body work the way it is supposed too.
So I sit here in tears cursing my useless eggs and praying for a miracle.
Answers.... Finally... But relief was not granted.
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