Christmas is over, family times were spent playing games, visiting, laughing, bugging, and joking around. 2014 is ending and we are entering into another great year. Going back through our minds its amazing how much one person can go through in the span of 52 weeks. Travelling to new places, people are married, people are born, people are no longer with us. Through out a mere 365 days how is a person supposed to wrap up their lives through out the last year in one simple post.
Facebook has these timeline movies, newspaper articles, slideshows, whatever. Some people have been forced to relive one of the worst years of their lives due to these posts, some people are reminded of everything they didn't accomplish, the dreams that didn't happen, the wishes that didn't come true.
Some people were so eager to post these posts as their battle ended, they had children, they got married, they beat cancer!
But did one little video sum up everything you've felt, the tears you've cried, the joy you've felt, the devastation in your chest? The most liked pictures, were those your favorite times? The most popular post, was that your happiest moments or was filled with heartache and people were sympathetic and offering their condolences and well wishes?
My simple little post is reflecting on my year, the lost, the found, the feelings, the successes and the fails to which I own, that are mine and mine alone, for my 2014.
We made new friends, I grew my voice a bit more, and lost a few friends in the process. I have decided to not form to be someone I am not, I am strengthening daily. I am not entering 2015 with regret for not having the child I so desperately wanted but I am ending 2014 as my year off from infertility. I have accepted that people can just grow apart even after decades of friendship. I hold no resentment, I hold no hardships, I take things as they come, move forward and move on.
I had a lot of fun this year, late night fires, driving the coast with my husband, exploring cape cod with his family, my first baseball game, many football games, had a ton of different smoked meals.... a ton of smoked meals... I swore to much, I drank to much, I had way to much coffee and chocolate but I laughed, a lot. I had a blast, not a care in the world. I tanned, I visited, I laughed, a lot.
2014 was maybe one of the best years of my life for no particular reason. There were a few big moments, our nephew, Abel, was born. Pregnancy announcements happened, babies were adopted, engagements happened, Weddings happened, plans were made. We moved into a beautiful new home, we have made future plans. Nothing to big that this post will focus on one thing.
2014 was one of the best years of my life because I spent it around people who helped me flourish, who taught me new things. I spent each big moment with my husband by my side encouraging me to follow whatever it was that I wanted to follow at that moment. It was one of the best years of my life because, even though there was drama, pain and problems, I have learnt so much. Even though there were bad times the good times surpassed the bad by far and it was an amazing year.
I wont go on to facebook and post a bunch of pictures from the last year, but I will share this post celebrating 2014, and praying 2015 is even better.
Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!!
