It seems life has caught the best of me these days. I have been so incredibly busy that I have had no time to post so this is more of an update than anything.
I have a bit of new exciting things happening in my life. First of all, you all know about Graham and I and our infertility journey, but what you don’t know is this journey has led me to one of the most amazing friends I could have asked for. She knows exactly what I’m going through, what I’m feeling and is struggling with the same challenges I am. I met her because while browsing around on Pinterest I found an infertility prayer. I clicked the board it was pinned to and was brought to Lindsays Pinterest page. I saw she had a link on facebook called “The Dream of being called Mommy and Daddy.” I immediately clicked like as I was so excited to talk to people who knew what was going on with me other than my husband.
After many many long facebook chats and whats app chats with Lindsay we have grown extremely close and it seems strange, given I have never met her, but she is quite quickly becoming one of my closest friends. (Don’t worry Carla she wont ever take your place!).
So a couple of weeks ago I get a random message from Lindsay asking if I would be alright with becoming part of her page. I immediately jumped at the chance and am now Admin on the facebook page “The Dream of Being Called Mommy and Daddy”. I designed a tattoo for Lindsay and she loved it so much she is asking me to make a logo for the page as well. I am still in the designing stage on that one. I think I might have a few and let the people of the page decide which one to use… Still not quite sure.
My photography has picked up a bit too so I am so excited for that. I have been getting a few calls for different things to shoot. I have such a passion for Photography and art that it amazes me that people are willing to pay me to do things that I love doing. Now I just need to focus on getting some more marketing out there and maybe even a website up and running as well!!
As for my personal life, Graham and I have hit a snag in the infertility thing. It feels like every step forward is another two steps back. We were supposed to start treatments last month and they sent me for some more blood work beforehand. I had already taken all my fertility drugs for that month and had paid to set up the treatment. I got a call the day after blood work and was told that I am not Rubella immune so I could not do the treatments but rather I had to go get another shot. Once I got the shot I had to avoid all pregnancy for the month. To me when something like this happens its devastating every time because everyone around me is pregnant or has had babies recently. Don’t get me wrong I love all the new babies in my family and my friends that are married and have been trying and I am so happy for them. I will even love all the unplanned pregnancy babies because I just love children. However, I do think things like, why is my little cousin more eligible to have a child than me? Why is my friend more eligible than me? Did I miss some line up or procrastinated going to an event of some sort that has forced me onto this path? Is it Karma? What did I do to deserve this?
So now I start again on the pills hoping that this time next week I am at the clinic getting a treatment and crossing my fingers and toes during my 2 week wait and sending 1000 prayers out a day… and hopefully it will be a long time before I get my monthly again… If I get it next month then I am, again, going to be devastated I’m sure…. Oh what a life I live.
