From tears of happiness and overwhelming joy to wretched sobs and never ending grief in a matter of moments.
Its fascinating how life can changed from one instance to the next. One second everything is in perfect working order and "everyone is set" then the world falls apart in a split second, a dust particle in time but changes the form of a future for everyone involved.
Words are spoken, feelings are felt and people are left behind. Smiles become rare, laughter unfathomable and joy is not remembered. Sorrow takes place and tears are the new memory. Every happy moment has a little bit of devastation and every sad moment is nothing in comparison.
An angel is watching us and God is holding us but our minds are controlling us. Taking us to dark places, to unimaginable pain, to selfish sorrows. We start to feel personally attacked, this was done to hurt us. We question everything. Relationships, friendships, lovers and life. Everything feels different.
A person never knows how much they truly impact lives until they are suddenly ripped away. The love surrounding one being is overwhelmingly strong and suddenly it doesn't know where to go, where to pour its unending support.
You grieve, you grieve for your loss, you grieve for your regrets and you grieve for your future. You're feeling as if you've been robbed. You've been robbed of your happy moments, your big moments, your life as it will never be the same.
You grieve for your child that will never know that amazing soul, you grieve for your spouse and pray they will one day be ok. You grieve for yourself, selfish moments, stolen memories, and future hopes of that loss.
You grieve for those times you pictured in the future. Those times you could see that person holding your child crying tears of joy as she looks upon your child's face. You miss memories that haven't happened and you're angry because they never will. You're filled with rage at the situation, that one moment, that dust particle in time.
Its astounding how a split second can change your whole world, your future and your family.
From overwhelming happiness to never ending grief...
