Proud to be Loud

You think calling me crass, rude, outspoken is a bad thing. That just means your paying attention. Thing is, sometimes a person spends their whole life chasing the definition of themselves, constantly forming, changing and morphing into someone they feel they need to be. People tell them what they should and shouldn’t talk about, how they should feel, what they should do and how they should do it and it all plays into the forming of the person you’re trying to find.

It takes a strong individual to stand up to your loved ones, to your family to your friends and announce who you are, to not back down and to shrug off the advice to be quiet, to be calmer, to not talk about certain subjects. It takes being blunt to do what you want to do, when you want to do it, and not favour everyone else’s opinion or schedule. This strength, this individuality, this bluntness will push away those you thought were close, and will bring in those you thought you couldn’t stand.

Its crazy how the world works. A movie comes out about a different type of love, a different type of sex and the whole religious community is up in arms because its not the typical sex scen that a movie portrays, therefore it is a wrong type of sex and we should not be involving ourselves into it. Yet every movie with any type of love story is wrong then. Just because a girl isn’t tied up and blindfolded, on her own choice, and the sex is slow and passionate, doesn’t mean its not a sex scene.

Its insane that people who are to accept everyone and love the way jesus loves can point and laugh, judge, and mock those with a different sexuality, with tattoos, with a voice that is so powerful its intimidating… So much for love like Jesus loved…

I have been the victim of those in the church that judge me, mock me, and tear me down for having tattoos for being outspoken and for pushing the envelope and the way of thinking. Instead of listening to my train of thought, thinking it through, im meant to feel wrong, evil, horrible.