I am Infertile, Deal with it!

So this week is National Infertility Awareness Week. NIAW!! I run an infertility page with my dear friend Lindsay and we have been doing a different "theme" every day. Its quite fun and inspirational with all of the good advice, sayings, tattoos and stories that have come to light this week with all the new likes on our page and comments and pictures.

I was told once that I need to stop saying that we are infertile because we were expecting a baby at one point.... I was pained by this because I found that as painful as infertility is, it has led me to some powerful things. It has helped me become much closer with God and has allowed me to watch as my wonderful husband has been turning into such a man of God. He is so strong and is my rock and its amazing to see him gain strength, love, and trust in God and by God.

Early pregnancy loss is just as painful as never conceiving and infertility is trying to conceive unsuccessfully for a year. We tried for 3.5 years before conceiving, and we lost it at 7 weeks. We are infertile and I will not be quiet about that. Im sure that if we dug our heels down and pushed hard we would find a reason as to why we haven't been able to conceive or why we lost the baby so early. However, we have a marriage, not just an infertile relationship. We are taking it day by day, loving each other more and more. Living in our marriage and trusting in God.

I have found a "place" almost. I love running that page and love helping in anyway that I can. I love the people I have been in contact with over the last year and how close I have become with the amazing people that I have met through that page.

I love Lindsay. That girl has been my best friend next to my husband and has shared my most private meltdowns and happiest of times. She has cried when I've cried, and laughed when I have laughed. She has picked me up when I needed it and she could always tell, even through something as small as an email, when I needed to talk. I will always be greatful to God for bringing us together when we are so far apart.

I'm told over and over again that the reason we cant conceive is because we get stressed. I'm sorry to tell you this, but stress has no factor! Although infertility is very stressful according to the American Society of Reproductive Medicine, there is no proof that stress is a factor of infertility. http://www.asrm.org/Stress_and_Infertility_factsheet/

I am Infertile, I know that makes you uncomfortable, but I am, and I will never forget the struggle of this journey and the amazing people and experiences that have come with it.

Deal with it.